Sunday, May 29, 2016
I wanted to share an experiment that I performed last night with you all and the results that followed that experiment. The idea for this experiment originated with the fact that for as long as I can remember, anytime I am touched at the base of my spine while sleeping, I experience a surging, jolting sensation that runs up my spine, making me arch my back. It is brief but intense. Over the past couple of years as I have progressed with my projection practice, I have noticed that this jolting sensation originates from the same point as the vibrations. This got me to thinking that maybe this jolting sensation is caused by interaction with an energy center, and if that is the case, it made me wonder, what if I could interact with that energy center through some nonautonomous method while sleeping. I have been mulling this idea over in my head for a long time now, but until last night, I never had a practical way of actually accomplishing this desired interaction. I used my FitBit.
For those of you who are not familiar with this technology, it is a small computerized pedometer. One of the handy features of a FitBit is its silent alarm, which results in the FitBit vibrating so you can wake up without bothering anyone else. I thought, maybe I could use this device to interact with this suspected energy center at predefined intervals throughout the night. I started by removing the FitBit from its accompanying wristband and safety pinned it into an Ace Bandage, you know, the long wrap-like bandages that you use when you have a sprained wrist or ankle? I then wrapped the Ace Bandage around my waist, placing the FitBit right at the base of my spine. I then set four alarms. One for 12:30 AM, one for 12:45 AM, one for 1:00 AM, and then finally, at 1:15 AM. After that, the only thing left to do was to go to sleep and hope for a bit of magic.
The first alarm went off and it worked just as I had hoped it would. I got that familiar jolt up the spine. I remained still, evaluating my current state. I was still relaxed, and I found that I had a gentle tingling at the base of my spine. I mentally played with the sensation for a couple of minutes but was unable to intensify it or make any use of it so I went back to sleep.
Each subsequent alarm resulted in that same jolt up the spine, but with one distinct difference. The tingling sensation continued to build. By the fourth interval, it was more a buzzing vibration than a gentle tingling. It almost instantly built into the energetic rushes that precede the vibrational state. This vibrational state then converted into one of the most lucid, most vivid projections I have experienced to date. I believe the clarity probably was a result of the wide awake, and yet very relaxed state I was in. I am anxious to see if this energy center interaction consistently provides this level of clarity.
On to the projection.
As is my usual practice, I quickly headed for my bedroom door. When I reached my door a male voice behind me said in a soft sing-songy voice "You're Cheating!". I looked around and was unable to see the source of the voice, but I had no doubt as to what this meant. I had just reached this out of body state through no work of my own, but through a small computerized device, and whatever this voice was attached to, was making sure I knew, that he knew. I quickened my pace and headed down the hall. Just as I passed the bathroom, the voice came again. Still slightly sing-songy, but this time, more notably upset and far louder than the previous message. "YOU'RE CHEATING!". At this point, I broke into a run and ran down the stairs, turned the corner, and headed down the second set of stairs, trying to make a break for the garage. As I reached this lower level of the house, I stopped and I could feel this thing right behind me. I felt its chin against my shoulder and felt its face brush against my cheek as it began to breathe heavily in my left ear. It then said in a loud, terrifying whisper, "YOU'RE CHEATING!". It then grabbed me around the waste. Looking down, I saw no arms, but could clearly feel them wrapped tightly around me. Muscular arms that I could not fight against. This entity then dragged me backward up both flights of stairs, down the hall, back into my bedroom, and then slammed me back into bed, reconnecting me with my body. I woke to a pounding heart and pumping adrenaline. Try as I might, I could not relax sufficiently for the rest of the night to give it another go.
Needless to say, I will be continuing this experiment. :)
Monday, May 23, 2016
I recently finished reading Explorations in Consciousness by Frederick Aardema and one of the things that he stated in his book that I found interesting is that vibrations exist outside of us at various points surrounding our bodies; to the left, to the right, to the front, to the back, above us, and below us. This made me think of the writings of Robert Monroe where he instructs the practitioner to reach above their head 4 to 6 feet and pull the vibrations down into their head. Frank Kepple talks quite a bit about raising your point of awareness up from behind your eyes and out the top of your head. Could it be that he too was shifting his focus to this external vibrational energy source?
I decided to experiment with this idea and to investigate the source from the out of body state. At 2:30 AM, I woke up to my alarm as usual and spent the next half hour writing down my dreams in my journal. Around 3:00 AM, I laid back down on my back and began my practice of deepening to the void state. The process moved quickly and easily. The familiar energetic pulses built into the vibrational state and I enjoyed them for a good minute or two before sitting up to look around my non-physical room.
Upon sitting up, I recalled my plan of action. I wanted to find the origin of the vibrations and see if they were visible to the non-physical eye when in this state. I noticed that the portion of my body that was still in contact with the physical, from the waist down, was still vibrating pleasantly. I experimented by laying back slightly and as I came back in contact with my body, the vibrations worked their way up my spine toward my head. Sitting back up, the vibrations faded once again from my upper body and remained light and comfortable in my lower half.
I began looking around for a visible source and the only thing I could see were two slightly pulsating large pill shaped objects next to each of my hands in bed. They looked electrical or mechanical in nature like they were made of some sort of transparent metallic material. They pulsated from white to grayish purple. I looked up, to the front, and to the back, but there was nothing I could see that I would associate with electrical current or this energetic state. These two objects were all I could see. I experimented by touching one and intense vibrations shot up through my finger and radiated up my arm and into my neck. I jerked my hand abruptly away as though I had been shocked. It wasn't painful, but it was surprising. I reached down and took hold of both pill shaped objects, wrapping my fingers tightly around them and my entire body was filled with vibrations so intense that it felt as if my head was going to burst. The noise was deafening and lights started popping in front of my non-physical eyes. More and more frequently until I was just staring into a blinding white light and it was over. I was back in bed to contemplate what it all means.
Were these objects the source of the vibrations? Was I not supposed to come into direct contact with them when just being in the general proximity seems to do the trick? Are these energy points the same for everyone? I would suppose not since I saw nothing above my head as Monroe reports. Do these astral batteries move around and change position? So much more exploring to do.
Let me know what you think.
Talk to you soon.
Tuesday, May 17, 2016
Today I thought we could start a conversation on sleep paralysis. For those of you who are new to this topic or who have never experienced this phenomenon, sleep paralysis is a physiological response to dreaming. Simply put, your body will paralyze at night when you dream to prevent your body from acting out your dreams so you can remain safe while you sleep.
Now I will tell you up front, I do not have a great deal of experience when it comes to the terrifying, debilitating, "lock you into place so severely that you couldn't break free if your life depended on it" type of sleep paralysis. For me, the process usually starts with a general heaviness, works its way to on overall numbing sensation, and finishes with a complete disassociation from the body. In this state, I know somewhere, my physical body must exist, and with some effort, I could tell you where it is and maybe even what position my arms are laying in, but it would require some effort to return to that level of physical awareness.
In contrast to my minor effort required, I have talked with people who get a wave of sleep paralysis so deeply that they can struggle with all their might and still cannot break free. For one individual I spoke with, the more he struggles, the stronger the paralysis becomes. What makes matters worse is that this deep paralysis is often accompanied by hallucinations and noises. Shadow people walking your room, creatures on your chest, and aliens encounters.
I asked a friend to describe his experiences to me and he pointed me to a documentary called "The Nightmare". He said that the episodes described in this film depict what he goes through incredibly well. My reaction to this very frightening film was probably not the response the director was looking to invoke in the viewer. I was not frightened, on the contrary, each scene, each image of "the hat man", each encounter with aliens and demons excited me! I wanted that! Let me explain. I am far enough into the practice of astral projection and inducing out of body states, that I am well beyond the point of fearing any sort of physical harm. Thoughts of some threatening non-physical creature breathing in my face induce the same response in me that a roller coaster may induce in you. It is a thrill. A completely safe act of surrendering to fear that will make your heart pound and make you feel alive! I have said it before, any non-physical experience is worth having. Some of my most profound experiences have started as some of the most terrifying. If one day I am fortunate enough to experience these nightmares, I will let you know if I still consider myself fortunate. :)
I will end by sharing a couple of theories that I have about sleep paralysis to get your thoughts.
First, as I think about my out of body travels, it is perfectly possible that I do indeed experience this deeply paralyzed state. It could be that at that moment of separation my body is paralyzed, but I just don't recognize the condition because I am no longer bound to that physical. I am out on an adventure, leaving my paralyzed shell behind. I believe, to verify this, I would have to try to reattach or simply remain in the physical when I get to the point of separation. I will add that to my to-do list.
My second theory is that my body simply does not require that debilitating level of paralysis. I fall asleep quickly. I always have. I do not toss and turn. I select a position, fall asleep, and wake up 8 hours later in that same position. I sometimes wonder if my body has adapted to my lack of movement and therefore applies a gentle numbing, but no more than that, because that is all that is required to keep me safe in bed. This thought occurred to me as I was talking with a friend who is in the regular habit of sleep walking. He also has some of the most severe sleep paralysis stories I have ever come across. It made me think, maybe his body has to counteract his incredibly active impulses at night with an equally heavy dose of paralysis.
So there you have it. That is my entire experience with sleep paralysis in a nutshell. I will add more as I experience more. In the meantime, what do you think?